7 ALONE-Things I Want To Try

Scopophobia: the fear of being stared at by others and drawing attention to oneself.

I am the type of person who enjoys company of others and hates despises attention a lot. I seldom go to places alone since I don't like the feeling of being stared by groups of people in a room or not having someone to talk to about random things on my mind. I hate catching attention, in every form. But as part of growing up and slowly becoming the independent person I want to be, I think I must give up that fear of attention and embrace things I haven't done before. In line with this, I made a list of things I want to do ALONE. Aside from the above mentioned reason, I want to try these things to discover new stuffs on my own and challenge myself to go out of my comfort zone.

1.) Eat in fancy restaurant alone.

I want to try this because I haven't try to eat alone in a crowded place before. I always wonder how does it feel, Will it be awkward? or Will I ever feel sad that I'm alone? I gave so much respect on people who have the guts to eat alone and do things alone and I always dreamed of seeing myself that confident to do so. I plan to do this on a place that I haven't been before and eat food that I have never tasted before. I want to create a whole new experience.

PS. I will also make sure to bring a good book (company).

2.) See a movie (either a sad or scary one) alone.

I am not really into going to cinemas or theater to watch movies. Normally, I would just find a copy of the film online and watch it in my laptop or I would just wait for it to be played in HBO or Star Movies with my family. Since seeing a movie in a cinema or theater is a not-so-common-thing for me I want to try it alone. I would like to watch a sad movie, that I will my heart out and never mind how I looked like crying or a scary one, and try not to scream at the top of my lungs when scenes got scary since I'm an easily scared person when it comes this kind of stuff. 

3.) Travel somewhere far alone.

This is one of the things I want to do as soon as I can. Traveling always seems a goal for me for I believe that exposing myself to other ways and cultures is a very fruitful experience. I want to visit breath-taking spots and learn new things that will add spice and color to my personality. Traveling alone I think will also help me to meet new people and enhance my socialization skills. I really look forward to accomplish to this one very soon.

4.) Go to a concert of my favorite artist alone.

I have never tried to do this since I am not allowed to be out at night by my parents. I would just update myself trough tweets, posts and other sources. I think this would be totally awesome, since I would have no company it means I have no choice but to socialize and meet new people and sharing the same favorite artist would be a good foundation for friendship.Or I will just enjoy the concert, singing alone with my fave artist's greatest hits while tears stream down to my face because of the "feels" of their songs and not caring about how I look because nobody in the thousand of people in the know me. Crazy right.

5.) Go to a museum or art gallery alone.

I have already visited some museums during field trips in my younger years and I want to try it alone to appreciate the beauty of artworks and expose myself in this kind of stuffs. I am not really artsy and I envy those who have artistic side. I want to try this just for an experience and who knows maybe I would be inspired and try to get artsy too. (Well that ain't gonna happen though, I am a hopeless case when it comes to arts sadly)

6.) Go to a salon and get a new haircut alone.

I have never tried to go to salon alone for a haircut. I would always ask either my mother or sister to accompany me because I am afraid how will my haircut would turn out. Getting my hair cut or a new hairstyle is a big deal for me because growing my hair long takes a lot of time and I don't want to suffer a bad hairdays that long. I don't want to make an impulsive decision that I will surely regret later. I want to try this to for a new look and see how would people take it. I just hope that this will not fail.

7.) Attend a gathering or party alone.

When there are parties or even family gathering I would always make sure that I have a legit  (meaning hindi nang-i-injan) company. Again I don't want attention and not having someone to talk even if I know some people there. I will just normally sit in the corner and observe people around me or probably read a book just to kill time. I am not really a party person. (uh-oh party pooper alert on me).